I’m doing this thing where I make myself believe that if I don’t think about all the bad things in my life and avoid them at all costs then I will be happy, but deep down I can feel them creeping in my mind and attacking me when I least expect them. I’m in the back burner. I have very little motivation to deal with others anymore. Does this make me a bad person? I feel like a bad person. I always use to love listening but now I feel like people expect me to reply with ideas that they think they want to hear and I just feel like lying to them is not a proper viable option. Not even for their own good. To hell with liars. When you tell someone the truth and they choose to ignore it so you reply with a lie and they listen to you, that makes everything so complicated. Life is so complicated. Fuck what people say about things getting better when they’re getting worse. If you want to truly be happy, you have to be the one to make it happen. Live with purpose they all say, well you better make damn sure that purpose is your self.
